OMG

It been long seen I last blog here go

I talk to a friend and there this topic that about believe

I Told her that I'm losing believe

Than I was scold by her..

But in between I remembered

And make me relive the moment when I was with my fav ex

The way she scold, the way she keep positive..

At that moment I did not realize it was who but when I remember it was my ex personality my eyes fill up with tears..

Its all my fault, my fight back than but she let me go..

memory is flying in my head ahhh.....

I need to stay back from here

She full of life, happiness and love

Not like me

The darkest Hate, Anger and Pain

Even we go to friends to make us happy..

But she stay happy n crazy

But I'm just go back to the dark after its all over...

We are two different people

with

Two different style

and

Two different Personality

I know I'm finding a sign

Am I at the right way

or

A slap at the face??

But in a way it feel like both..

I don't know really..

but if that the sign that I'm some where already..

Need to keep on learning

Should I go to her for help??

but I will cry.. with the same personality

Oh god what should I do??

oh have no Idea..

I will continue later or tmr bye...