love n like

Its been years I like you but months go by my like turn to love..
back than you where with my bro so I know can never have you..
After he left us I go MIA because of my study n my dance..

but after I come back you are with another bro, so I still can't have you..
In June 2011 I like someone the it never lest,
The feeling fade away..

I know you were alone that time but your heart is broken n I know that time you need a bro more so I hold my peace..

In Dec 2011 I like this other girl a dance from an other school but I can't get close to her soon the feeling fade too..

In the party of yours we had n I know no matter what happen I can't have you.. You are like family n I don't go for family..

Feb come, yet again I like another person because she like an ex of my.. but we were in not good teams, I keep thinking why I want a girl because she like my ex? I should like her because I like her, not by memory..
that too fade..

but after all that my luv for you never fade..

I had try to forget, I had try to let go but I had try for 3 years but still not getting any where..
I need to keep on trying..

Peace out DeeWings

The best day ever

Today fun to the mix..

I was with Sarah n Small girl in the afternoon..

It was fun.. I keep disturbing Sarah all the way hahaha..

it was funny, she even drink coca to be hyper to get back at me but can't muhaha

I still win hahaha no one can stop me hahahaha..

We go to some art store to look around..

after sending Sarah home I go meet my 24.0h bro's (Muz n Endy)

We talk for hours joke, ghost story and ect

than go meet an old friend at her house (Ika)

for the 1st time i see Endy cook..

it was nice.. than I got fat..

We talk until trouble come..

then we play hide n sick..

that was the most funniest thing ever..

If every day like this OMG it crazy fun..

Don't need to care a shit about anyone..

just relax and have a lot of fun..

raise you hand to the roof..

IDK

I know I should move on but its hard..

She hate me and yet I still care..

She lie to me but I still tell the true..

I a guy with reason

She know I'm watching her but she DK why I do it..

Sometime Idk why I do it in the 1st place..

I try to hate, I try to forget but I can't

But I'll try n try..

I care I do..

only a 1 of my friend know my true feel for her..

yet I send him/her to look after her..

I hope in weeks time I will forget..

the feeling I had..

My friend tell me to tell her my feeling..

That is just playing crazy..

At the moment like this..

she hate me more..

I know I should not post anything about her

but I do it with reason

But that until another day of my post..

Today

Today is something different..

Seen every day dance..

today i go out with friends..its been a long time seen i go out with my friends..

its was a hot day but it was fun.. n I really need a life other than dance..

after my performance in April.. I want to go hang out with my old friends..

I miss them all.. seen there are my family too right..

for months I have not be there for them but now its time to change it..

Time to get back in the game.. back to having fun..

but it dose not mean i don't enjoy dance but too much of a something is not good..

right??

well this blog might be short but its something to talk about..

Can't wait to meet my friends/family/bro/sis

OMG

It been long seen I last blog here go

I talk to a friend and there this topic that about believe

I Told her that I'm losing believe

Than I was scold by her..

But in between I remembered

And make me relive the moment when I was with my fav ex

The way she scold, the way she keep positive..

At that moment I did not realize it was who but when I remember it was my ex personality my eyes fill up with tears..

Its all my fault, my fight back than but she let me go..

memory is flying in my head ahhh.....

I need to stay back from here

She full of life, happiness and love

Not like me

The darkest Hate, Anger and Pain

Even we go to friends to make us happy..

But she stay happy n crazy

But I'm just go back to the dark after its all over...

We are two different people

with

Two different style

and

Two different Personality

I know I'm finding a sign

Am I at the right way

or

A slap at the face??

But in a way it feel like both..

I don't know really..

but if that the sign that I'm some where already..

Need to keep on learning

Should I go to her for help??

but I will cry.. with the same personality

Oh god what should I do??

oh have no Idea..

I will continue later or tmr bye...

..happy..

You look so happy but why you are still incomplete??

Why you are still unhappy??

Why you are so empty??

Why only anger is in your heart??

Why Dee Why??

I don't know..

I smile bec you smile but there no other reason for me to smile

I so lonely inside.. there no one there..

But yet I'm still kind to my friends..

1st Day

1St day of class OMG boring giler(crazy) can not take it lah sia.. Got new teachers.. teac sorry to say boring sia.. you tell us there we already know.. and how you teach can really make my factory of zZz start..